Week 5: Whew!

Hello Everyone!!
So ... week 5: Fear of the Lord. Man, did I have opportunity to walk that out in the most real sense! Its been a tough week, just getting our bearings back from our trip to Byron Bay for Evangelism, but the staff and students have really pushed through to CHOOSE to endure and seek God's Will through all their weariness. So good to see, and way challenging too! We are just about half way through the DTS and I'm left almost speechless. Almost. Smile. Time seems to be on Fast Forward and zooming past without my consent! So much has happened and so much has yet to happen!! I've attached my long-lost newsletter onto this email, please let me know if you have any issues opening it up. Its way past due and I sincerely apologize for not sending this earlier! I will be posting some in the mail, please let me know if you would prefer to receive it that way or online- thank you!
Okay so time for one quick testimony: Fear of the Lord. I had a bit a tough morning on Wednesday and I chose to snap at a fellow staff member instead of dealing with the situation and not taking it out on him. But I decided that it was really his fault and he deserved to be snapped at for being so selfish. I literally held onto that decision for the next 24 hours. Not the wisest decision. My attitude stunk, since I knew that it was a sin to hold onto unforgiveness, I hadn't slept well so I had a huge migraine/headache and I didn't want to tell anyone what was wrong since I knew what I needed to do. Stubbornly I tried to tell myself that it really didn't matter if I asked for forgiveness or not. Tsk. You're right. Immaturity for sure. No worries, finally God nailed me with a huge challenge. "Do you fear me enough to step out of my Will and my Commandments?" Yes is the obvious answer. That got my feet moving and my mouth forming the words to apologize to the poor guy. The sense of peace that accompanies obedience is past explaining. I do know better. And I'm only regretting that it took so long to get my feet moving. Sigh. I can explain away lots of things but in the end I need to ask myself: Do I fear God enough to be obedient? I do. But its still a choice we make. Whew, eh?!
God is challenging me in the area of debt which I've had since before starting to staff with YWAM. Being WISE with the little I have so He can trust me with more. Its not easy and I've had to battle fear of man with even being open about it here but where I shine Light, darkness cannot live. So forgive me if I have offended you with my confession of debt and I ask for your prayers for supernatural WISDOM to overcome and be set free from it. Thank you for understanding!!!
Let me know if you have any questions and I really do appreciate all your prayers & love!!!
Love love love,
Reba